Heart work is really hard.
Recently, I have just been in awe at how patient the Father is; how tender and loving He is. He has wanted healing in my heart for me for SO long, but He wasn’t ever going to push me to do it. He wasn’t going to force me to do anything I wasn’t willing to do. Most importantly, He wasn’t going to ever leave me while He waited for me to start that journey.
A couple of weeks ago, I walked through some really challenging things and it put me in a position of knowing something had to change and it had to change that day. Finally I was ready for the Father to pull up deep, deep roots in my heart that were contributing to how I felt about myself and in turn, contributing to how I was acting as a mother, as a friend, and as a wife.
I am immensely thankful to have community. Because of this, I was able to go, incredibly vulnerably, to a trusted friend who helped walk me through what I needed to do to partner with the Father and accept healing from Him. He was so gentle with me and my broken pieces, stooping down and helping me out of my muddy mess. I am now standing on the firm, steady ground He’s placed me on, the place He always intended me to be. Don’t get me wrong, I’m still working and some days are harder than others, but I’m finally moving forward, one step at a time.
My biggest advice to you, sister, is if you’re walking through some serious heart surgery, make sure you’re taking each step with the Father and make sure you’re also connected with someone who’s helping keep your heart and mind on track. One of the enemies biggest plays is making us feel isolated. But we don’t have to be!